IF ONLY FOR ONE NIGHT

If only for one night , I would hold all thats true and real in my life so close to me , never once letting go...

Candles lit all around me and absorbing their vast aromas and incasing the smells within my memory... one by one.

Taking a journey in my mind of who are not present and rekindling fond affairs and heightened moments of love ... feeling them again as if reliving them , play by play. 

Playing them back in my mind, changing scenes and scenarios , as to make them perfect , as they were not the first  time.  Trying to get them right the 2nd time , yet only in my memory. If this I can do... it would make for fond final memories before the curtain comes down.

If only for one night, I would gather all close to me in distance and tell them the love I feel for each one of them. Letting them know that there's nothing possible in this world that they could have said or done that will make me love them any less. Where there's a front door there must be a back  and thats where it all goes.

If only for one night, I would write a love letter to anyone I have ever been in love with. I would tell them that no matter what the outcome was , that I love them and although they were just a season in my life ,  they will be a century in my heart.

If only for one night , I would listen to as much music as I can , the songs that inspired me and motivated me, and songs that gave me the the courage to step out of my zone and proactively take that leap of faith into something I might not have done ,had it not been for the words of that song.  I will sing  them one more time...

If only for one night I would pray to God and jesus saying  " Thank you for all that you have given me and taught me. Thanks for the undying , unconditional love that has been shown me from birth , before or even after".. I will pray for the souls that remain here and pray that they see what I saw in Jesus.. a never ending love that will never leave me , abuse me , Hit me,  Belittle me, Judge me or destroy me.

If only for one night I will close my eyes and lie in slumber imagining a world of peace and hope and of a whole new life; Knowing that one day all that I have loved will be whole again and that its not over ... its just begun

By~~~~ Donna Q.

IS JESUS WORTHY OF BEING A LEADER?

Is Jesus Christ worthy to be called our leader? Some people think that Jesus was weak, so weak that He could not or would not even try to save Himself from death. If that were so then I would have to agree that He is not worthy to be called a leader, but that is not what happened.

When they came to take Jesus away, He told Peter: Do you think I cannot call on my Father, and he will at once put at my disposal more than twelve legions of angels? Matthew 26:53 Now, does that sound like someone who was too afraid to stand up for Himself? Or does it sound like someone who knows what must be done and is willing to do the job?

While I was on active duty in the Marine Corps,  I can remember walking the halls of many different units and looking at the pictures of Marines who had died in Vietnam and won the Medal of Honor.. Many of them were awarded the Medal of Honor posthumously because they dove on top of a live grenade to save those around them. These men were heroes because they were willing to give their lives so that others might live. Well that is exactly what Christ did. He knew that His Father (God ) required death to anyone who has sinned. Since we have all sinned we all must die for those sins, that is God’s law. Yet God loved us and did not want us to die. He could not change His holy nature to allow sin or sinners, but He could pay the price for us. He did so by sending His Son, Jesus Christ to earth to die for us.

I often have heard a person who was the victim of a violent crime described as being a hero, because they suffered so much during the crime. I don’t in any way mean to take anything away from those people’s memory, but I am going to be blunt here. Having been both a Marine and  a female marine at that, I know that when a person has no choice in the matter and becomes a victim it is not the same thing as someone who willingly faces death for another person. The real hero is the person who could walk away but instead steps up and lays down his life for someone else, often for someone they don’t even know.

It is the same with bravery. How brave do you have to be to be taken by surprise and victimized? Now, how brave does a person have to be to go into an unknown situation where they know there is life and death danger?

My point is that Christ was a hero and very brave, because He knew He could walk away, or call God’s Marines to come bail Him out, but He willingly chose not to because He knew He was our only hope. Yes in my book He is more than just worthy to be praised and worshiped, it is owed to Him by every human being. One day every person whether weak and frail or big and strong will bow down before Him and proclaim Him as Lord. Therefore, God exalted him to the highest place and gave him the name that is above every name, that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father. Philippians 2:9-11 As for me, I will gladly do so because I know He is worthy of my loyalty. I also know that he is "Always Faithful" to me too. That gives new meaning to the words Semper Fi!    Donna Q.

TO FORGIVE OR NOT TO FORGIVE

Judge not, and ye shall not be judged:

condemn not and ye shall not be condemned:

Forgive and ye shall be forgiven.

 Luke 6:35-38

                                                                                                                 

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I hear alot of people on a daily basis , tell stories of things that happen in their lives and how people have done them wrong. They would say "Well I forgave them but I wont ever forget it". Well, no of coarse you wont. We have a memory... one that stores things that have  happened in our lives, as far back as we can remember. That's a given.  The part that I think people have a hard time dealing with or understanding is that when we forgive , yes we remember, but  forgiveness means letting go. It means releasing the anger , hurt and devestation that occured during the incident. If this does not occur then there is no forgiveness.  Forgivness means to feel in your heart, that even though that person hurt you, you can put it aside and continue to love that person  no matter what , it may not be the same as before but if that person were hungry you would feed them , If that person were dying, you would want to save them, if they need a hand to hold or a shoulder to cry on , you would be there . Letting go will empower you to no end. Its soooo christ like to be this way. If we can master this we can handle anything that comes our way in this life. I have finally learned to do this and I am so proud of myself. People are really born good. We are loving and caring people. How could we not be... we are from God. Go back to those roots. I have been hurt bad by some people in my recent days , but you know what ? I still love them . And whats even stranger my love didnt change . To this day I would be there for them till the end , no matter what they do.  I do this because I have learned to love unconditionally . Forgiveness and unconditional love go hand in hand . Think about it.  How can you forgive without unconditional love? It will not happen. So the next time someone says or does something to hurt you , feel the pain , grasp it, and deal with it.... and then let it go. Walk up to the person that wronged you , say I forgive you and mean it. Release that anger and fear  and keep your heart open never allowing it to consume you. No Pitty parties. And I am a witness by God that you will feel a power that you have never experienced in your life before.  I have experienced it.          DQ

I PROMISE

I had , in the recent past , wrote this about some one near and dear to my heart.  I now want to post it. It's not much but are the words that came to my mind about this person... anyway here it is...


Walk within the grace of your spirit,


Let our hands unite, touching

palm to palm, fingers embraced,

journey together, and let your eyes

behold the majesty

of the soul, grasping all its beauty  and promise.



The destination will

show itself

when it is

ready.



With my lips, I will kiss away

the teardrops that never should have been trickling down your face...



With my ears, I will hear the things

you can't always say and listen

when you don't have the words... understanding the silence that prevails.



With my eyes, I will see the

parts of you that no one else has

ever seen before and tell you how

beautiful you are  inside and out so that you can

see it, too...



With my arms, I will hold you close

to me and make up for all the times

you should have been held... and for the times  you were misunderstood especially by me.



With my heart and soul, I promise

I will love you just as you are and were meant

to be loved!!!!!!!!      Donna Q.

SOULMATE

                                         SOULMATE



This love we have is so unique. It tells the story of many

dreamed of and hoped for images. Never a day goes by

without the haunting presence of you.. reaching out..

touching... feeling with such a chill running through me.



I enter this moment in anticipation and longing. The

closer you get is like a life time of forevers. I inhale the

very thought of you. I feel your presence within me,

caressing and loving me with such devour!



Your closeness is as the foot is to the ground. So

close yet so far away. You speak to me in my dreams

and in my thoughts. I turn quickly to see you but, I see

only an image... one of extreme desire. Forever your face

is implanted in my mind.



God, how I miss you and I do not even know you! The

smell of your skin. The slightest touch of your hand to

my face.. the soft and sweet smell of your breath

enticing my neck.... will I ever feel this sweet emotion?



Each day goes by, with hopes and positive dreams.

where are you my love? Where is this jewel? A gift of

God? Are you standing right in front of me?? Am I not

seeing you? Are you in a land of foreign existence,

untouchable?



Bring yourself to me! Let this dream hold its reality.

Fulfill this prophetic event! Let there be no more

waiting, no more tears, no more aching and hungry

heart.



I so long for this awaited day... let me be lonely

no more. Take my hand and let the comfort and

humbleness encompass me now and forever, as we

walk into that place where nothing can touch us.

only the love that was promised us.



Lets share all that we have. Never taking for granted

all that has been give to us. Embrace and cherish

this love that we have been so fortunate to acquire..

now and forever more.



Donna Q

QUIET SOMBER

Besides writting devotions and motivational speeches I am also a poet... hope you enjoy some of my work..

Quiet Somber"




A breeze blows carrying a quiet ,yet boastful intrigue, one of sensual and evanessence, abound.



There's so much to be said , yet the silence says so much more.



It carries with it a vast array of feelings and emotions that can only be felt , through those who know this direction of scwarry.



Quiet do I say , that this silence awards love and the knowing of it.



Speaking without saying a word, the somber silence reveals the heart . And the heart knows the quiet surrounding of this tale.



This tale of true demeanor and compassion. Passion ignites in the quietness of two soles , never saying a word... just knowing that in this quiet somber exists a fairy tale story... one that will always be , even in the silence of the night.



This quiet somber will reveal the most breathtaking , soul binding, love of loves , never to be broken .



Donna Q. 06/27/07

LIVING INSIDE OURSELVES

As we walk through life , we discover many aspects of ourselves. We discover the inner structure of what exists and the outer layer of what covers it all up. In my opinion , nothing matters more than what lies beneath the outter layer. We can exist , smiling our way through our daily life, weather it be happy or sad .... And thats all good. We can present ourselves in a way that only the wisest of men can be able to decipher , hiding all that ails us and damages us within. We can pretend to be anyone we want .. living a life of  deception and theatrical prowess.   We can be sad but act glad... we can be depressed but show normalcy, we can be decieving but show trustfulness, we can have evil intentions and self gratifying motives but  portray love and a giving heart. We can go through life with that mask on all the time.

But.... the truth is we cannot hide from ourselves or God. We can show anything we want and portray ourselves as anything we want people to believe we are. The truth always finds its way back to the surface. We know who we are inside. We have to live with ourselves for 24 hours a day . There's no fooling us. And there's no fooling God. Our conscience is our "Little devil on the left shoulder and our little angel on the right one". There's someone that's always there holding us accountable for every word muttered from our mouths and every thought that makes their way through our brain housing group.  We show different aspects of our personailty, based on what we hold inside. We build walls based on our fears and abuse that we have experienced in our life. Only we know the real person inside... and know why we do what we do and say what we say. We all have a past . God knows every single hurt and defect that exists within . The masks need to come off and we need to look at ourselves square in the face and stop pretending. Open the gates and release the demons that ail us and   the lies  that mutilate everything that god has given us thats good! I am guilty of all of this , we all are guilty of this. We hide behind the hurt and devastation that has accrued over our lifetime. God is the only one that can remove that mask. Tonight, I am turning over my mask to him . I am tired of hiding behind the abuse, guilt, hurt , devastation, and aching heart that so exists in my life . I will pray that god will give me the strength to move on ... because right now I am at my lowest point. I have never been at this level before and  the pain overpowers me . God willing I can break through it all and emerge with brighter days and a renewal of spirit.   DQ

THE BIG PICTURE

I remember when I was a little girl,sitting around an oval table, having dinner with my Family. There are 7 people in my family.... 4 boys  and I ,the only girl in the middle , and of coarse, Mom and Dad. It was a ritual nightly ,to eat together and sometimes talk about the days events. Now mind you, my parents were not church going people . My dad was a tough , military diciplinarian , which now that I am grown ,believe that it was a good thing that he was so tough on us . My mom  is a sweet no drama type of mother lol. Wants to please everyone . Back then we did everything as a family, weather we wanted to or not! lol  We would pile in the ole LTD Ford to go to grannies house in Troy Alabama .. weather we wanted to or not! We had no choice. All of that was misery back then but as I look at how families are today , there is no wonder why the family institution is falling apart.

 The average family has no father or leader.  There is no one there to take control and set limits on what goes on in the lives of children. There's no structure or dicipline anymore. Families do not sit down and have dinner and discuss issues, they don't pray together,  its all about fending for our individual selves. Parents are drinking with their kids. Parents are smoking dope with their kids. Whats going on? Im not saying everyone is this way but its becoming the majority though , that this is what exists now. God says "Pull away at the fibers of my cloak and watch the world ravel away in disaster and turmoil". This means take God out of the family and schools and places of worship and watch the very fiber of this country wither away. I believe that's what has happened to our country ... God is being kicked to the curb , so to speak. And as long as this happens our children and their children are in trouble. Something has got to happen  to bring him back into our world. We need to take a stand and fight for him . All of us. I just had to talk about this because its so obvious and hes leaving it up to us to take a stand . Lets do it!                      Donna Q.